this incident happens alot....and it happens to me too...
i mean, if you're close to someone for a really long time, you somehow would eventually get this feeling like you just wanna spend your lifetime with him and no one else but he just doesn't have the same feeling like what you have. i don't think i could escape from that feeling, i don't want to fall in love with someone who doesn't know me well, that's why i prefer making friends than having a relationship that's more than that.
but this friend of mine passed away, and it's almost a month now and i still can't forget him at all, he's always on my mine, either i'm alone or with my friends, if i suddenly kept quiet, it's just because it somehow remind me of him. but!i'm not sad or anything, i just think about all the funny and crazy stuff that we did together and it's all fine and that's how i still have my smiling face. but also because of this, he may never know how i really feel. but than again.... I'm glad..
I've known you for so long
You are a friend of mine
But is this all we'd ever be?
I've loved you ever since
You are a friend of mine
And babe is this all we ever could be?
You tell me things I've never known
I shown you love you've never shown
But then again, when you cry
I'm always at your side
You tell me 'bout the love you've had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you'll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again
I'm glad
I've known you all my life
You are a friend of mine
I know this is how it's gonna be
I've loved you then and I love you still
You're a friend of mine
Now, I know friends are all we ever could be
You tell me things I've never known
I shown you love you've never shown
But then again, when you cry
I'm always at your side
You tell me 'bout the love you've had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you'll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again
Then again
Then again
I'm glad
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
workskop in KK, sabah...
once we arrived in Sabah, we were picked up by the lion's club member to have lunch at the garden seafood restaurant....
i have to admit that they treat us (the Broadway Parodies(BPLL) Lagi Lah casts and crews) really really nice.... like we're the VIP that was there to bring them fortune....but i know that they do this because we were their invited guests and we are there to help them to raise fund for the less fortunate childrens all across Sabah and Malaysia if i'm not mistaken and i'm truely honoured to be part of this wonderful event.
Sabah is a really wonderful place to be in...although while we were there, it's been raining non-stop, but what we did there was really a priceless and a new yet great experience for everyone.
right after our lunch, we were brought to our hotel to unload our stuff and then straight to a place we were to conduct a workshop.
The Cast Members of BPLL had the opportunities to share some tips on how to be a performing artist. We conducted a short 2 hours debrief of Acting, Singing & Dancing in the said event which was attended by more than 20 students from various backgrounds.
the students there was so nice and adorable,each of everyone of them have their own talent and we are truely honoured to have conducted the workshop for them.
so we hope that the workshop actually taught them something important, which is not to be shy and stay grounded all the time....
cheers
Shahila Johan
Shahila Johan
<3
Sunday, October 19, 2008
the final trip of 'Broadway parodies lagi lah'.
as many might have know, i like to keep myself busy with everything i can think of so i won't waste any of the time i have and for the past few months, i've been busy rehearsing and performed in KL, Ipoh, Penang and johore and next thursday, i'll be performing with (again) the talented casts of 'Broadway parodies lagi lah!'.
the amazing journey have brougth us together like a whole new big family and i love all of them in their own ways.
well, our last stop is going to be in Sabah.
Day/Date: Saturday 25 October 2008
Matinee Show : 03:00 PM
Evening Show : 08:30 PM
Venue : Universiti Malaysia Sabah's Recital Hall
For tickets please contact
1) Thomas Ho (016-8101787)
2) Dr Kheng (088-267000)
3) SPArKS (088-222939)
4) Margaret Lau (012-8026282)
5) Glenda Liew (016-8307366)BPLL National Tour (Sabah) is proudly sponsored by The Lions Club Kota Kinabalu Sutera
for more information, you can always go to www.broadwayparodieslah.blogspot.com
cheers
shahila
<3
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
in the loving memory.....
on Friday, 10th October 2008, at 2.40pm, as i was about to get ready to make a sound-check before a full dress rehearsal that's being held in Wawasan Open university for my the show 'Broadway Parodies lagi lah', i got a devestated instant text messege from a friend that's made my heart stopped! for awhile that i feel the world is suddenly spinning so fast that i can't breathe, i dropped everything that i was holding and i suddenly felt lost.....that i don't know what was i doing anymore....i'm lost and trapped, in my own mind.... that just like that, i have officially found out that i've just lost a truest-bestest-loyal-loving friend that i've known forever.
he was Malay-Japanese-Javanise while im the Malay-chinese javanise-dutch....he was born on the same year, same month but not on the same date with me, he was born 5 days after my birth day... and fromt that day on, we do everything together, we talk, laugh, play and even showered together (when we were babies la....)...we even got ourselves sick together so we can skip school together. he is more than a friend to me, he is like a brother, that protected me from bullies (i was a tomboy back then), shelter me from harm, lift me up when i was down and would do anything just to make me smile.... and i promised him that i'd do anything to make him happy... never to see him shed a tear, being with him all the time so he won't be lonely and would even take care of him when he's sick. but now...i still can't believe that he's gone...for good...
'for good'....the song from the musical 'wicked' was our theme song together...he'll always sing Glenda's part and i'm Elphaba.... everytime i hear it now, i can't help myself but to cry alone, because i do really love him, with all my heart, he's the one guy that i'll ever trusted, he is the perfect gentleman, the ideal guy that's every girl's dream..... just spend 5 minutes with him and you'll understand what i mean, his touch is so gentle that it would make your heart sink... he is so loyal and caring that no one can take his place in my heart.
i still can't believe that he left me just like that, without saying goodbye, without letting me tell him how i really feel about him, the feeling that i have will only remain in my heart, for the truth cannot be spoken anymore.
why wasn't i there for him when he was sick??? how can i enjoy my life while he's lying on the hospital bed, coma.... just thinking about me not being there for the last for him is the most sinful thing that anyone has ever committed. i promised him that i'll be there for him no matter what, but i'm on tour for my show and negleted him for a week, and just like that, he's gone from my life forever. i'll never get the chance to see his laugh when he makes his own jokes, i'll never get to take a ride with him anymore and i'll never get the chance to tell him that i love him.
it makes me cry everytime that someone reminds me of him, the song, the shirt, the colors, the food, the drinks, the smile and the laughter. words cannot describe how i feel right now.
but Rieffy bear, i'll never forget you. no matter how hard it has been for us, we've made it through...it's us, only us, we've made our dreams alive. just like the song.... because i knew you, i have been change....for good.....
this is for you...
ELPHABA:
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you
GLINDA:
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let themAnd we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sunLike a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
ELPHABA:
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with meLike a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
GLINDA:
Because I knew you
BOTH:
I have been changed for good
ELPHABA:
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
GLINDA:
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
BOTH:
And none of it seems to matter anymore
GLINDA (ELPHABA):
Like a comet pulled (Like a ship blown)From orbit as it (Off it's mooring)Passes a sun, like (By a wind off the) A stream that meets (Sea, like a seed) A boulder, half-way (Dropped by a)Through the wood (Bird in the wood)
BOTH:
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?
GLINDA:
And because I knew you
ELPHABA:
Because I knew you
BOTH:
Because I knew you
I have been changed.......
for good.
i don't think its proper to put a picture of him because he's a dear friend to me and i want him to rest in peace.... may your soul is blessed.
LOVE,
Shahila Johan
<3
he was Malay-Japanese-Javanise while im the Malay-chinese javanise-dutch....he was born on the same year, same month but not on the same date with me, he was born 5 days after my birth day... and fromt that day on, we do everything together, we talk, laugh, play and even showered together (when we were babies la....)...we even got ourselves sick together so we can skip school together. he is more than a friend to me, he is like a brother, that protected me from bullies (i was a tomboy back then), shelter me from harm, lift me up when i was down and would do anything just to make me smile.... and i promised him that i'd do anything to make him happy... never to see him shed a tear, being with him all the time so he won't be lonely and would even take care of him when he's sick. but now...i still can't believe that he's gone...for good...
'for good'....the song from the musical 'wicked' was our theme song together...he'll always sing Glenda's part and i'm Elphaba.... everytime i hear it now, i can't help myself but to cry alone, because i do really love him, with all my heart, he's the one guy that i'll ever trusted, he is the perfect gentleman, the ideal guy that's every girl's dream..... just spend 5 minutes with him and you'll understand what i mean, his touch is so gentle that it would make your heart sink... he is so loyal and caring that no one can take his place in my heart.
i still can't believe that he left me just like that, without saying goodbye, without letting me tell him how i really feel about him, the feeling that i have will only remain in my heart, for the truth cannot be spoken anymore.
why wasn't i there for him when he was sick??? how can i enjoy my life while he's lying on the hospital bed, coma.... just thinking about me not being there for the last for him is the most sinful thing that anyone has ever committed. i promised him that i'll be there for him no matter what, but i'm on tour for my show and negleted him for a week, and just like that, he's gone from my life forever. i'll never get the chance to see his laugh when he makes his own jokes, i'll never get to take a ride with him anymore and i'll never get the chance to tell him that i love him.
it makes me cry everytime that someone reminds me of him, the song, the shirt, the colors, the food, the drinks, the smile and the laughter. words cannot describe how i feel right now.
but Rieffy bear, i'll never forget you. no matter how hard it has been for us, we've made it through...it's us, only us, we've made our dreams alive. just like the song.... because i knew you, i have been change....for good.....
this is for you...
ELPHABA:
I'm limited
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you
GLINDA:
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let themAnd we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sunLike a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
ELPHABA:
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with meLike a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
GLINDA:
Because I knew you
BOTH:
I have been changed for good
ELPHABA:
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
GLINDA:
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
BOTH:
And none of it seems to matter anymore
GLINDA (ELPHABA):
Like a comet pulled (Like a ship blown)From orbit as it (Off it's mooring)Passes a sun, like (By a wind off the) A stream that meets (Sea, like a seed) A boulder, half-way (Dropped by a)Through the wood (Bird in the wood)
BOTH:
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?
GLINDA:
And because I knew you
ELPHABA:
Because I knew you
BOTH:
Because I knew you
I have been changed.......
for good.
i don't think its proper to put a picture of him because he's a dear friend to me and i want him to rest in peace.... may your soul is blessed.
LOVE,
Shahila Johan
<3
Monday, October 13, 2008
animals right....
(the kitty is resting in my arms and wouldn't let me go)it's kinda funny because i thought that i wanted to write about the trip that i had recently or about a death of my dear friend that's been with me ever since we were born but just a few hours ago, i found the most incredible story that i think i can share with everyone... it's about life, love and humanity.....
around 8.30am today, when i reach my college on the way to the class on the third floor, my eyes suddenly struck at something that was so tiny hiding and staring at me, i quickly and quietly walk towards it and i found a kitty... a small little kitten that looks like the kitties i have at home (about 3 weeks old). so when i walk towards it, the kitty suddenly walk towards me as well, and when i sat down next to it, the kitty suddenly jump on to my lap and starts cuddling with me (so manja......) :) but i found out that there's blood around it's ears and nose (which eventually stained my white top, but it's ok.... ;p).i found out later that the kitten has been there for a week and it has been kick and 'wooshed' away before. it was a heartbroken for me honestly, i mean, how can people do that to such innocent creature that God's made to keep us company for some reason. animal got life too, with feelings and the sense of love. Stupid People!
i was alone then, so eventually, no one was there to help me and i can't just walk out of the kitten so i just sat there for awhile with the kitty when finally i saw my friend, he just sat next to me and talk to me without even looking at the injured kitty on my lap, so i just talk to him and showing him and giving hint on helping me but he doesn't even care....
but then Roland (one of my classmate that's been helping me alot) came to the rescue, he found a box and together, we bought some fish and fed the kitten..but then, we have a problem, i got class to attend at 9am and no one will look after the baby kitty and then came Shafiq, he helped abit, by staying with me until i find a place for the kitten but in the end, it was 9.10am and we really have to go so we decided to leave the kitten at the corridor and pray so no one would harm it.
at the end of the class, i think i was the first one to run out to look at the kitten but in the end i only found an empty box with fish bones inside of it. so wherever it is, i hope the kitten is happy and away from all the harms and cruelty that's here among us. Let it live to know how the world is and i hope that everyone can change and just be nice to the animals. STOP ANIMAL CRUELTY!!!!
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Friday, October 3, 2008
how could i ask for more....
In life, everyone makes silly mistakes. But in every mistake, there's the good and the bad. I've never knew why, but it seems that in human nature, people always think about the MINOR negative outcomes and never appreciate what's good come to them…..they always thought that life sucks because nothing ever comes their way, but they never really thought about what remarkable things they have done for the past years of their life.
Just because you breakup with somebody, doesn't mean you have to mope around all day,week or even years and let the world sympathize you. and then you think that you're doomed never to have a relationship for all your life….WTF!!!so what if your not in a relationship right now??this is the time when you should STOP moping alone and start working with your life…hang out with your friends…go watch a movie…go read a book…or better yet…go find somebody and stop condemning ur partner for God's sakes..
YES it is true that you need a partner in life…but when you think about it (if ur under 25)don't you think that your still young??aren't young people suppose to feel nothing but free, young and happy??and not stress, confused and crappy???
For me..i have been through all that despite dat I m only 22(well almost..atleast its December..)….i have been through sorrows and even blists…I've been through the happiest days of my life to the worst day of my life…I've tried not to be myself just to pleased others …I've been crushed like a rock by the person whom I thought was 'THE ONE'…I've always thought that everyne (including my family, sorry...) hated me and is trying to put me down…lots of people I trusted had backstab me a lot….been teased at because of my physical size……being lonely all the time….the list could go on forever!!!!but I should stop…hehe…
Well..anyways…when I think about it again…I forgot all the wonderful things I've done too…I've scored in my exams…I was lucky to win some sports medals… someone likes me..someone loved me…I've been in love before that I couldn't breath….I've conquered mount santubung….i have a wonderful family who has been supporting me through out my days and still is…my true friends who's always there when I need them…music that eases my my pain….performed infront of atleast 10,000 audiences before and proud of it…..got to perform infront of our King and PM…got some insparations to write my own songs…..lucky to still have money in the bank…hehe…..lucky the have touched some people hearts (in a way..)….lucky 2 have YOU to read my blog…hehe….just to think about it again….i have a lot more to be thankful about…don't you think so too?????
All I wanted say is that, instead of thinking 'what a lousy day I had'…why don't you think about 'today, I met a cute guy'…or 'thank gosh I passed my exams'….or even 'YES!!!i've lost 2 kgs'….when you think about it…the SECRET not to think ur life sucks is simply wake up with a smile and think about one wonderful thing that you'er gonna do today..it doesn't have to be big… u can start with…'today…I should change my hair style..' or 'today…maybe I should say hello to the cute guy..(wink* wink*)'…or 'today, I'm not gonna stop think about my weight for awhile and eat as much as I want'….
I have wrote so many poetry and songs lyrics and it has helped me relax all the time…ITS TRUE!! and I've tried writing it in BM but I can't seem to do it well…or I'll write something really odd…so I guess I should just stick to english for now..but that doesn't mean that I will not write in BM in the future…I've promised myself somehow I will try..hehe…just..not so soon la….In da mean time….i leave you with somethng I would like to share… read on if u may…hehehe….
There nothing like the warm of a summer afternoon
Waking through the sunlight and being cradled by the moon.
Catching fireflies at night, building castles in the sand
Kissing mama's face goodnight and holding daddy's hand…
Thank you......how could I ask for more…
Running barefoot through the grass, a little hide and go seek
Being so in love you can hardly eat.
Dancing in the dark, when there's no one else around
Being bundled 'neath the covers and watching rain falls to the ground…
Thank you....how could I ask for more…
So many things I thought would bring me happiness
Some dreams that are realities today.
Such an irony the things that means the most to me
Are the memories that I've made along the way…
So if there's anything I've learned from this journey I am on
Simple truth will keep you going, simple love will keep you strong.
There are questions without answers and flames that never dies
Heartaches we go through are often blessings in disguise…
So thank you…how could I ask for more…
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Just because you breakup with somebody, doesn't mean you have to mope around all day,week or even years and let the world sympathize you. and then you think that you're doomed never to have a relationship for all your life….WTF!!!so what if your not in a relationship right now??this is the time when you should STOP moping alone and start working with your life…hang out with your friends…go watch a movie…go read a book…or better yet…go find somebody and stop condemning ur partner for God's sakes..
YES it is true that you need a partner in life…but when you think about it (if ur under 25)don't you think that your still young??aren't young people suppose to feel nothing but free, young and happy??and not stress, confused and crappy???
For me..i have been through all that despite dat I m only 22(well almost..atleast its December..)….i have been through sorrows and even blists…I've been through the happiest days of my life to the worst day of my life…I've tried not to be myself just to pleased others …I've been crushed like a rock by the person whom I thought was 'THE ONE'…I've always thought that everyne (including my family, sorry...) hated me and is trying to put me down…lots of people I trusted had backstab me a lot….been teased at because of my physical size……being lonely all the time….the list could go on forever!!!!but I should stop…hehe…
Well..anyways…when I think about it again…I forgot all the wonderful things I've done too…I've scored in my exams…I was lucky to win some sports medals… someone likes me..someone loved me…I've been in love before that I couldn't breath….I've conquered mount santubung….i have a wonderful family who has been supporting me through out my days and still is…my true friends who's always there when I need them…music that eases my my pain….performed infront of atleast 10,000 audiences before and proud of it…..got to perform infront of our King and PM…got some insparations to write my own songs…..lucky to still have money in the bank…hehe…..lucky the have touched some people hearts (in a way..)….lucky 2 have YOU to read my blog…hehe….just to think about it again….i have a lot more to be thankful about…don't you think so too?????
All I wanted say is that, instead of thinking 'what a lousy day I had'…why don't you think about 'today, I met a cute guy'…or 'thank gosh I passed my exams'….or even 'YES!!!i've lost 2 kgs'….when you think about it…the SECRET not to think ur life sucks is simply wake up with a smile and think about one wonderful thing that you'er gonna do today..it doesn't have to be big… u can start with…'today…I should change my hair style..' or 'today…maybe I should say hello to the cute guy..(wink* wink*)'…or 'today, I'm not gonna stop think about my weight for awhile and eat as much as I want'….
I have wrote so many poetry and songs lyrics and it has helped me relax all the time…ITS TRUE!! and I've tried writing it in BM but I can't seem to do it well…or I'll write something really odd…so I guess I should just stick to english for now..but that doesn't mean that I will not write in BM in the future…I've promised myself somehow I will try..hehe…just..not so soon la….In da mean time….i leave you with somethng I would like to share… read on if u may…hehehe….
There nothing like the warm of a summer afternoon
Waking through the sunlight and being cradled by the moon.
Catching fireflies at night, building castles in the sand
Kissing mama's face goodnight and holding daddy's hand…
Thank you......how could I ask for more…
Running barefoot through the grass, a little hide and go seek
Being so in love you can hardly eat.
Dancing in the dark, when there's no one else around
Being bundled 'neath the covers and watching rain falls to the ground…
Thank you....how could I ask for more…
So many things I thought would bring me happiness
Some dreams that are realities today.
Such an irony the things that means the most to me
Are the memories that I've made along the way…
So if there's anything I've learned from this journey I am on
Simple truth will keep you going, simple love will keep you strong.
There are questions without answers and flames that never dies
Heartaches we go through are often blessings in disguise…
So thank you…how could I ask for more…
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Thursday, October 2, 2008
the journey...
Half the world is sleeping,
Half the world's awake
Half can hear their hearts beat
Half just hear them break
I am but a traveler, in most every way
Ask me what you want...to know
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been.
I have been to sorrow
I have been to bliss
Where I'll be tomorrow,
I can only guess
Through the darkest desert
Through the deepest snow,
Forward always forward, I go..
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been...
Forward, always forward...
Onward, always up...
Catching every drop of hope
In my empty cup
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Half the world's awake
Half can hear their hearts beat
Half just hear them break
I am but a traveler, in most every way
Ask me what you want...to know
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been.
I have been to sorrow
I have been to bliss
Where I'll be tomorrow,
I can only guess
Through the darkest desert
Through the deepest snow,
Forward always forward, I go..
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been...
Forward, always forward...
Onward, always up...
Catching every drop of hope
In my empty cup
What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
And they're bound to guide my way
When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
What a journey it has been
cheers
Shahila Johan
<3
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
the long and winding road....
Life can be hard sometimes huh?but at the same time, its fun...to know that what we've been through eventually makes us think wiser. We can be trapped in a world of lies and games and rules that somehow, we think that we live in a virtual life or we can snap out of our dreams and deal with the reality that the world is offering. I like dreaming but at the same time, i like my dreams to become a reality. The more i think about it, i wonder if any of my dreams came to life yet or not..hmmmmm.....
I've always make myself busy with things so i could run away from the reality world but somehow i can't escape. sometimes i move to fast that i've forgotten my purpose in life. chasing my dreams to become reality, that's the main thing that i needed to do.
i think i did pretty good on slowly to fulfill my dreams. i've always love to perform infront of a crowd and i did!!!! and i think i might be addicted to it. Just to sing, dance or even act on stage with the lights shine on you is like.... you're in your own sweet world and at the same time making people relate to you. Going on tour and making people noticed you once in awhile is really fun! like, i have this one time, right after a performance, a little girl came to me and say "che che (kakak/sister) i like you". I couldn't ask for more. I love it... it's good to make a good impression to kids because they are the ones who gonna be us one day and we have to show them whats best for them.
Did i ever tell you that i cook? well, now you know. i can't say that i love cooking, but i think i can be good at it and when i cook, i love to see what they think of the food that i've made. i mean, i bake alot, so it's not like it's successful all the time but when it is, it's an awesome feeling!!!
on being alone, sometimes its better to be alone but not all the time... i mean, everyone need a partner in their life right, at a moment of their life, they wanna know the feeling of love and being love. i want that too! but i only want that when i can actually trust that person. i don't wanna rush things, i want it to be relax and cool, i want to feel the love that could add happiness to my life (and his of course) and not sadness or sorrows like most of the couples that we see now a days. i wanna love and be loved all over by the same person everyday of my life. to share everything and spend time just the two of us under the big blue sky on top of a hill somewhere or sit by the ocean while feeling the ocean's breeze. yea...maybe one of these days, when faith found someone.
friendship that last, not forever but last long enough to know who's your real friends and who are not. i have to say, i have lots of fantastic and awesome friends that have helped me through my ups and downs. we may have lost contact but somehow we manage to find a way to connect back with each other, and when they do, you just feel like you don't ever wanna let them go again. but eventually, you will, AGAIN!
anyways, what i'm trying to say is that, live your life to the max, if you wanna do something or try something new, i say "GO TRY IT!!!" you won't loose anything. just like the song from 'avenue Q', "everything in life, is only for now".......
cheers
shahila Johan
<3
I've always make myself busy with things so i could run away from the reality world but somehow i can't escape. sometimes i move to fast that i've forgotten my purpose in life. chasing my dreams to become reality, that's the main thing that i needed to do.
i think i did pretty good on slowly to fulfill my dreams. i've always love to perform infront of a crowd and i did!!!! and i think i might be addicted to it. Just to sing, dance or even act on stage with the lights shine on you is like.... you're in your own sweet world and at the same time making people relate to you. Going on tour and making people noticed you once in awhile is really fun! like, i have this one time, right after a performance, a little girl came to me and say "che che (kakak/sister) i like you". I couldn't ask for more. I love it... it's good to make a good impression to kids because they are the ones who gonna be us one day and we have to show them whats best for them.
Did i ever tell you that i cook? well, now you know. i can't say that i love cooking, but i think i can be good at it and when i cook, i love to see what they think of the food that i've made. i mean, i bake alot, so it's not like it's successful all the time but when it is, it's an awesome feeling!!!
on being alone, sometimes its better to be alone but not all the time... i mean, everyone need a partner in their life right, at a moment of their life, they wanna know the feeling of love and being love. i want that too! but i only want that when i can actually trust that person. i don't wanna rush things, i want it to be relax and cool, i want to feel the love that could add happiness to my life (and his of course) and not sadness or sorrows like most of the couples that we see now a days. i wanna love and be loved all over by the same person everyday of my life. to share everything and spend time just the two of us under the big blue sky on top of a hill somewhere or sit by the ocean while feeling the ocean's breeze. yea...maybe one of these days, when faith found someone.
friendship that last, not forever but last long enough to know who's your real friends and who are not. i have to say, i have lots of fantastic and awesome friends that have helped me through my ups and downs. we may have lost contact but somehow we manage to find a way to connect back with each other, and when they do, you just feel like you don't ever wanna let them go again. but eventually, you will, AGAIN!
anyways, what i'm trying to say is that, live your life to the max, if you wanna do something or try something new, i say "GO TRY IT!!!" you won't loose anything. just like the song from 'avenue Q', "everything in life, is only for now".......
cheers
shahila Johan
<3
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