can love heal?

tears are words that heart cannot express

but every tears that flows is always a bless

love comes and heals the wounded heart

it will guide you to what lies ahead

i've been there, had my heart broken

the memories that i thought had made me fallen

it heals but it doesn't seem like it

because right now, love is all i need

every song in the radio brings me back home

i know coz that's where i come from

why does saying goodbye hurt so much?

maybe it's because i love you that much.

i just wanna live and learn

everything that i light and i can burn

coz i know that love will heal
when there's nothing else that you can feel

love heals when it's too much to bare

like when you reach out but nothing's there

love can carry you home

love will lead you home

there is an end to the storm

a place that can keep your heart warm

hope is power, love will heal

for a love that heal

we are all star dust that shine on

we've been like this since we were born

love is all we need to heal

for love's the only thing that seals

for those who shield their heart

and for those who quit before they start

love heals when the pain is there

when there's no one for you to care

life will go on..you will smile again

WE will smile again!

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com

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'til we meet again...

how long has the time passed
and i still can't believe you're gone

i really should miss you but i can't let you go

i look at your photograph all the time

i remember the little things

i remember 'til i cry

how can i ever say goodbye?

i can honestly say that you've been on my mind

since i woke up today

these memories came back to life and i don't mind

but i wished i could forget coz i'm wasting my time

a familiar song was played again today

through my tears i sang along

a song i knew our love from way back when

it used to be the favourite of mine

time had changed and everything is not the same

since you're gone and left me here alone

stopped by your grave today

feeling so empty like my heart had died

i wanted you for life

it hard to understand but i have to try

i never thought that there would come a time

that our story must end

so i just came to say....goodbye love......

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com

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a love song?

this is a fact that i've known....people only read your blog or listens to your songs IF you put LOVE in it...it seems that no one cares if you don't have a life or happy about something...they just wanna know if you are happy with your love life or how heartbroken you are when you've just lost someone... -_-''' well...it's a fact!

i wanted to write about the moments that i had on everything involving me but somehow it doesn't really work unless i write something about having a crush on someone, or willing to do something for some one or even would die for someone.... so my next blog entry..i shall try to write more on those stuff and see how it goes la... now..i only have one problem...

i don't really feel the love... i mean, it's kindda hard for me to write songs about love.....no, NOT because i am single..and no, NOT because i've never been in a relationship before...i had 2 failed relationship.....it's just that..i lost someone so dearly to me October last year and the feeling of love is just hard to think of. although he was my bestest best friend, the love i had for him is more than the love that i had for my (guilty) boyfriends... the relationship that we had was not the same... the love that we had...i know that we can never be together but i kept hoping everyday of my life that someday he would actually......love me in return.....not as a best friend..but as his soulmate.... but now, i know that it WILL never be.... for he is now standing among the angels in the sky, maybe smiling down at me......or he could be my guardian angel that's been guiding me through......wherever he is..i know that he is happy.....

SNAP!!!!

woah....so yea..i shall TRY my best to start writting love songs or something.....

cheers
Shahila Johan
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just a voice

that one voice is conquering the night

singing through the darkness

it's reaching out for the light

clearing up the minds of the innocence

the voice speaking of words

that one day chould change the world

the voice would start on it's own

heart knows what to say
it'll make you dream 'till you found your way

there is an amazing strenght

with a million prayers

some are the victories that we've never planned

there's always a voice of an angel

shines the light upon your soul

a simple joy that life could bring

it's always the one with the courage
will teach you all you needed to know

it's the voice of reasons for you way

that voice will never be alone

it'll face all the unknown

that one voice will be heard

and it will awaken the music

and forever it will SING!

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan

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papa.........

something happened that made me realized today

papa has been holding it too long

he's always trying to make us happy

that he forgot about himself some times

he always kept quiet

giving us food and shelter

giving us love and peace

giving us everything we could ever wanted

all he ask from us is just simply...

make him proud.

i know i'm not always there for you lately.

im always out when you're around

and i'm always home when you're gone.

they told me that you walked for miles today

just to take out some cash because there's none on you

and the ATM was far away

but you didn't mind because you knew it's your job

and i wasn't there to help you

because i was selfish and spent time with my friends

i should've been there for you

i should be the one who walk the miles for you

i should be the one that's taking care of you

i'm so sorry for not being there

i regret staying out too long

i always wanted to make you proud papa

but eventually i think i've let you down

i cried today just to think of you

i wish there is something i could do

just to turn back time and make it better

but i know it's too late but there's tomorrow

i shall not let you down and i'll let you see

papa, i love you with all my heart

thank you for taking care of me all this while

now it's my turn to be the one

to take care of you and make you proud of me!
i love you papa!!!

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com

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colours...

you can't just judge me with just one glance

just because my colour is brown

it doesn't define who i am

this is not the only colour you will see

so why should you judge me by my colour?

colour is skin deep

to love me is to know me

so please don't judge me because of this

without colours, there's no harmony

just like without melody, there's no music
without a soul, it'll be cold

just like without parents, there won't be you

being in a mixed parentage has tought me alot

although i might not have the same colour

but i know more than you'll ever learn

just like how i know you've been judging me

i don't need to be call names because of my colour

because one day it might just be you

i may be white, i may be black

i am both colours in between

i can be a hero, i can be a loser

i am yearning for a name

i am hymn, i am heard

i am reasons without ryhmes

i am no one yet i am many

i am seasoned by each being

i am a student, i am a leader

i am fate and evolution

so do what you want

say what you can...

words can't slow me down

from doing what is meant for me...

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan http://www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com/

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numb...

a sudden silence came to me

i wanted to just scream and shout,but nothing

nothing came out although i tried so hard

my heart moves so fast i just wanna stop it

im disappearing slowly i can see it fading

i feel nothing i my hand though i tried to touch

everything in my mind is colliding

it moves so fast it's creating chaotic

what's coming over me that i have no control?

i can't hear myself saying just breathe

my feet can't seem to find the ground

shiver cold i stand alone

my head is spinning, think im losing it

my senses gone, i've lost my way

lost in this maze of numb again

by, Shahila Johan

cheers

Shahila Johan http://www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com/

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