time for a splendid 2009!

as everyone may know by now, 2008 is now a history year to be told and most of us might be still wondering what have we done of this passed year... and i personally have my own ups and downs, but i think my ups is always more than my downs, so i have to say that 2008 has been an awesome year for me.

this year i have did a few things that i can't imagine that i would do it. i changed my hair style after 5 years, finally conquered my fear of microphones, performed after stopped for a few years, have more confidence with my body, love my family more, taken things with positive attitude, toured around Malaysia with some really talented bunch, meeting new talented-honest-lovely individuals, actually listen before making decisions, finally making my family (mainly my dad) proud of me, learning new stuff, be more patient, making my dreams come true one step at a time, use less plastic bags, care more on the inviroments, feelng good about myself, support local music, love my country more, took out my braces, financially stable to shop around (-_-) and alot more that i could never think of!

well.... as usual, early in every year, we have our own 'to-do' list just to see what did we accomplished by the end of the years right? i have my own little list i think.. :P when i looked back what i did in 2008, i have accomplished most of my goals and for that, i so pleased of myself. i feel good of myself.

and yet...in all my ups, there's also some downs that had happened which one of it includes losing a dear friend, missing a few gigs and of course the ever so famous 'break up'. i should've been kicking and screaming by all this down moments but i didn't, surprisingly i didn't do anything that would hurt myself during this miserable voyage of tragedies. i mean, i would if i wanna but i choose not to just simply because i know, there's always a reason behind it. because of that, i don't complain much about all this to anyone. i rather think positive and continue with my life like what i'm doing right now. :P

i've met many types of people this year and got to learn so much from them. they teach me to Feel, Enjoy, Stay Calm, Happiness, Truth, Believe, Faith and of cause how can i deny LOVE...and for that, i wanna thank everyone for making me a better person. you have indeed touched me in your own individual special ways.

as for year 2009, i just hope that the greatness that's been happening for all this while doesn't end. i love the fact that i can still cope with this enviroment. i wouldn't ask anything else but to be a better person that i can be. we're getting a year older every year and i think that i can still have fun while being a little bit mature at times. because in all 'drama', they are all the ways that God's showing us the real life of good and bad and in the end, we still have the chance to decide who we are, who we were and who we wanna be. i know that life is cruel, and i've fought hard, so hard that inside of me was killing but at the same time i was becoming better. but then again, once you're settle your whole life to the point that you love everything about yourself and others around you, you feel like you're not prepare to let any of the luck or accomplishment to go away just yet, you wanna keep the glory forever. well... like i said before, nothing last forever, everything in life is only 'for now'.

'children keeps growing and river keeps flowing too, i don't know why but somehow or other they do, a hundred million miracles are happening everyday, and those who say they don't agree, are those who did not hear or see'.
so come on people, let's try changing for a start, it doesn't have to be big, just a smile could make such a big impact. let's change one self before we can together make a change to the world. Let's change for the better.

cheers
Shahila Johan
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did or didn't do in 2008!reminising of a normal person...me!

2008 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
a wonderful year fly pass us so quickly......i found this questionaire in facebook and tought.. "why not".......

lost a friend?
~ yea... a dear friend indeed.. R.I.P.... al-fatihah...

stayed single almost the whole year?
~ i wished....

had your heart broken?
~ yes

had a stalker?
~ yea....hahahaaa~

done something you've regretted?
~ yes... very much.. but the outcome..not bad la...

lost someone?
~ again...yes.... Al-Fatihah....

dated a co-worker?
~ no

dated your boss' daughter/son?
~ not working, but if it refers to the productions i've done.....then... no..

got fired from your job?
~ no

cut class?
~ guilty....but for some good reasons... :P

were involved in something you'll never forget?
~ ou yes indeed.

visited a different country?
~yes, my family do it every year and this year..... Bali, Indonesia. :)

cooked a gross meal?
~ i've never cooked a gross meal before... that means i'll fail my culinary subjects. :P

lost something important to you?
~ yes. :'( my dearest bestest friend.

got a gift you adore?
~ i cherished every single gift that was given to me.. so yes... :)

tripped over a coffee table?
~ yes...all the time

dyed your hair?
~ yea...highlighted for the first time ever... :D

went to a party?
~yes.. alot...

read a great book?
~ the secret by rhonda Byrne.... it's my favourite book of all time...

saw one of your favourite bands/artists live?
~ i adore all bands so..yes... local bands can be awesome as well.... :)

saw someone famous in person?
~ part of my job is somehow to meet someone famous..

2008: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone?
~ yes

Did you meet anyone special?
~ i met so many amazing individuals...

Do you like someone right now?
~ can't really tell if i'm into that person for his personality or for him..so...i'm not quite sure...

2008: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?
~ yes!!! and i'm glad i did!

Did you dislike anyone?
~ i don't hate of dislike others. everyone got their own opinions. :D

Did you make any new enemies?
~ well....i hope not...but if i do....im so sorry...

Did you resolve any fights?
~ i don't think i was involve in any fights....

Resolved friends' fights?
~ well.... i tried....

Who was your closest friend?
~ was? well... he passed away on the 10th of October 2008. Al- Fatihah...

Did you grow apart from anyone?
~ as people grows older, they eventually got to know who's their real friends and foes... and we can't always be there for all of them....

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
~ i have no regrets at all because for me.... there's always a reason behind this wonderful friendship that we make... :)

2008: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?
~ nope...but lots of donuts and cupcakes... :D

What did you do for your birthday?
~ well... my friend brought me to see a jazz performance and my family brought me to have steamboat....how could i ask for more.... i feel so blessed.... :)

Did you have a party?
~ not really a party but yea....sure...

Did you get any presents?
~ yes.... i cherish it all.....

If so what was the best thing you got?
~ i got everyone i love to celebrate it with me.... :)

2008: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?
~ everyday is a new day.... i've learned more about the nature, about others and myself... if i said that i've changed...it's for the better.....

Did you dye your hair?
~ told u before.....my first highlight!!!

Did you get your hair cut?
~yes.... quite a few....i even cut my own hair!

Did you change your style?
~ yes... after 5 years!

Were you in school?
~ no...i'm way over that one... i'm just gonna graduate and continue in some other university...

Did you get good grades?
~ yes! an unexpected 4.0 pointer is the best feeling i'ved ever had!

Did you have a job?
~ yes yes yes indeed i have.... which includes waitressing in Luna Bar, pastry chef in Cafe deli and part time singing and dancing because i got paid doing that as well...yay!!! i love my jobs!

Did you drive?
~well....i do have my driver's licence since i was 17... :P

Did anyone close to you give birth?
~ yes... my sister.... to a beautiful baby girl named Anastasia.....

Did you go on any vacations?
~ yes.. with family and tour with my production so it's kindda like a work vacation...i like it... :P

Would you change anything about yourself now?
~ just to be more positive on things and learn to be more patient...

2008: Wrap Up.Is 2008
a good year?
~ yes.... a wonderful splendid year indeed although some unexpected tragedies happened..

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
~ shall pray for a great one ahead.... :D

I confess that in 2008 I've
~ did some crazy things but i've changed for the better and to be a better person in life...

stayed single for the whole year
~ i wished....

made out in/on a car
~ nope...

kissed in the snow
~ if there's snow in Malaysia..i would love to do it....

celebrated Halloween
~ nope.. stayed in with my family.. :)

kissed in the rain
~ ou wow...that would be romantic too..... maybe one of these days ei? :P

had your heart broken
~ yes..

broke someone else's heart
~ im so sorry if i did...

mooned someone
~ yes.. guilty... :P

went over the minutes on your cell phone
- yes.

had a good relationship with someone
~ a great relationship with my family and friends.... :)

someone questioned your sexual orientation
~ yes...

came out of the closet
~ yes... i was shy.... :P

gotten pregnant
~ no... i'm not that extreme...

have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
~ i'll never forget any of my friends..

done something you've regretted
~ yes.. a few...

kissed under mistletoe
~ i wished! XD

cheers
Shahila Johan
<3

physical strenght...

a really truly unexpected question was thrown at me today that actually did made me think for awhile. "do people look at other people appearance before anything else?" my answer was simply.... YES! i know not everyone will agree with me on this and will think that i'm a slecker bitch that judge people by their appearance...but its not true...like i've told you before...i don't judge anyone just by looking at them, i like talking to everyone. but looking at ones appearance is a fact! don't tell me that you don't do that because i know you do.

have you had this experience before? you walk to a shop and browse the stuffs inside that shop and suddenly a sale-assistant of an opposite sex approach you and started asking you questions, first they'll be like, asking what kind of item are you looking for and the next thing you know, he would be asking for your name and where you live and all.... well....sometimes..these things do happen...

if you look nice and pretty and decent and clean, people would have no problem approaching you, but if you're not that pretty looking but decent enough for the crowd, a glance from a far is good enough. for people that does not blessed with proper physical appearance, do you think that you would approach them? if they smell or extremely short or full of pimples or even simply disabled, do you wanna get near them... if you say yes..... YOU'RE A FREAKING LIAR!!! fine, let's think of a scenario where you're on a blind date and you're suppose to meet your blind date outside a certain restaurant at 8pm sharp, because you don't know how your date would look like, both of you promise to carry a rose so you can regconize your partner. so once you reach there around 7.58pm, you decided not to take out your rose to see how your date would look like before you can actually approach him/her. it's now 8pm and there's a taxi stopped infront of you, the door open and the first thing you see is a rose sticking out of the car, then, one by one the legs touch the ground, and when you could finally see the person's appearance, it turns out to be an old, fat, grumpy looking, long messy hair person wearing faded color t-shirt and torn jeans...and surprisingly, that person is holding a rose and was standing outside a restaurant seems to be waiting for someone, and you tell me if you wanna let that person knows that your the date. would you? darn!stop saying you will..because i know for a fact that you won't. it's human nature. i can't read people's minds but i know how everyone would react. i like looking at people's differents reaction, it's so fascinating somehow.

that's why you can see that women always so cusious about their appearance, how they look, how they dress, how they smell or even how they stand. if you're fat, you still have your face to save you, the hair is an asset for all girls to look their best! what i'm trying to say is that no matter how other people say that they don't judge people on their first meet, the first look says it all.

i'm not trying to look down on those people but wat i really mean is that, be confident with yourself, if you think that you're ugly, then you are ugly. stop saying your fat, short....bla bla.... stand tall and be yourself, do the best you can for yourself and trust yourself. stand infront of the mirror and shout "I'M BEAUTIFUL!!" because it is true when they say 'we are beatiful in every single way and words can't bring me down.'

love your body, don't hurt yourself to be someone you're not. you still have someone who loves you no matter what and that's your family and friends. if you think that you're doomed not to have a soulmate because of you're appearance, think again. wherever you are, there's always someone who's missing your laughter, your voice or even your touch.
one more thing, don't be shy to know what you want. if you want that little something, go ahead and reach it. don't stop half way just because you heard from someone that it's taken, go find out yourself. like i said before, 'if God wants you to let go of something, that's because he wants you to have something better'....so go ahead and go get it.... better hurry up before it's too late.

cheers
Shahila Johan
<3

a note on Christmas

Dear Santa,

i know you might be busy reading Christmas letters and all so i'm gonna make it quick and short (i hope) to make your life so much easier.

i don't wanna ask for anything this year because this year has been the best year of my life and i've got everything that i've always wanted with my own hard work. i mean, i work hard to get where i am right now and i'm comfortable with myself. i was once a shy young person who thinks that this world is so cruel and evil and just wish that i don't have to spend another day here but as i get older, i found meanings, reasons why i should stay calm and go with the flow on everything i do. along the way, i found joy and happiness, hopes and faith, blessing and wishes, but most of all, i've found love. love doesn't mean that i have found my true love but my true love lies in my family, without them, i don't think i can survive alone in this wonderful place. as you may know, i've always wish for their well being and all, well, they don't always happen when i ask, but i know that love is very near and i know that miracles always do happen when i believe in it.

this year has been a wonderful year for me, i can promise you that i was not naughty...well...maybe a little naughty but not as naughty as i used to be, i'm more calm and always think before my actions. most of my actions this year has been positive and it has bring me to what i've always wanted to be. i love my family, my friends, my feelings and my personal thoughts.

yesterday, a couple of my friends meet up for a chat and i was tagged along for a tarot card reading session and i thought 'why not' so i followed them. there, i found peace and everyone was just so wonderful. while waiting for the real session begin, one of my dear friend who did it before try reading my future, more like, what's gonna happen to me in 3 months time. so she did something to the card and took out 2 cards for my future, the oracles are from Isabella and Isaiah and surprisingly, both of the cards says that i've done my purpose this year and it's about time that something goes my way. a love and passion of desire will come my way and that i'm suppose to find true happiness in 3 months time. so i'll just get my finger crossed la. i hope that the true happiness that i'm gonna find is something i'ved always longed for. :P
well....the real seesion begins and a lady asking my past, presents and future to the healing oracles of angels. she was passing her energy to all the cards and chanting something and asked my name. we sat on the floor and she told me to focus so i did. she then took the cards one by one placing it infront of me, the first is my past and it shows 'retreat', the second card that shows my present is 'music' and the last card for my future shows 'serenity'. by that, i don't think i wanna know what that means because i think i do know a little bit from the past of retreat and the present of music. but the future of serenity? maybe when my friend first read my future in 3 months time that i'll find my true happiness and with that i will eventually get my serenity. yea... maybe that! yay!i'm not hoping for anything to happen within this 3 months but if it does, well, it would be splendid! so i guess anything can happen in this 3 months right? maybe it's today or tomorrow or the day after or end of this year or new year or next month or maybe even the month after. well....i'll just let faith to do that it has to do.

well Santa, what i really wanted to say is that all i want for christmas this year is my true happiness. :) it doesn't have to come in a package or anything but to love and be loved in return is wonderful enough.

thank you Santa, may you have wonderful christmas and have a save journey around the world spreading your joy and happiness to the world and at the same time enjoy the milk and cookies that we leave you infront of the fire place. and if you have any tooth-ache after having all those milk and cookies, well...my mom's a dentist! :P or we can even share some cookies as well!!!i love chocolate chips chocolate cookies just like you!

love,
Shahila Johan
<3

a bakery with a mission...

i just had lunch with my sisters somewhere in ss16. while waiting for my dad to pick us up, me and my sisters came across this one shop bakery and the first thing that caught my eyes was this picture i took! it says that the bakery that never sleeps... so i thought 'hey let's just go in and check it out'...ou...another thing that i saw was this sign... everything here is self-service and we only pay by donation and today's donations goes to the woman organization for under privillaged woman in Malaysia. ou..one more thing is that, they don't beleive in wasting and no take aways. so everything is dined-in.

as we walk in, we saw this rack of books and newspapers... top shelf is the newspaper and the picture that i took is the book section where u can dine in and read for free...most of the books here are those inspirational books like 'heaven is real', 'God is my savior' and there's even some bibles we saw.

the place to make us a cup of drinks. there's quite a few variety of hot drinks that u can make actually. there's 3 types of tea which includes green tea, 3 types of coffee, milo and even hot chocolates.

there's not much variety of food here but it's what you donate that helps and counts. a few types of muffins, rolls and even garlic breads. wha more can they ask for right?

roughly what it looks like from my view where i was seated. :P

the cash register there was just a props there that was never used. next to it was a sandwitches bar which tuna, chicken and egg mayo. there's normal bread to whole grain, you can choose!

the place where everyone can dine.

the good thing that i see in this bakery is that, they are all friendly people and i can assure you that this place is really clean. i have yet to know the name of this bakery because i didn't get the chance to ask any of them.

you can eat whatever you want there and you don't really have to pay but as you may know, it's a charity bakery so every money that you donate is important. it doesn't have to be alot, but just give what ever you think is necessary. today i've donated rm15 and had 2 blueberry muffins and a cup of hot chocolate and i feel happy. i feel like a part of me have done a wonderful thing by helping others.

one more thing about this bakery is that, there's a box where you give your donation, on top of it, there's a note written "yesterday's donation, RM514.55 was collected. thank you". meaning that everyday they will tell how much money that they collected so we don't have to think that the person who work's there takes all the money for themselves right?

i'm really proud of this bakery honestly. this is the first bakery that i see actually can make a different in other people's live mot only by their food, but by their charity and kindness.

i wish i could open my own charity cafe or something, because i heard someone once said that "if you help others, they will help you too in what ever they can".

so why don't we just stop thinking about ourselves for once and help the needy and make the world a better place!

cheers

Shahila Johan

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a coincidence reunion to remember....

it's just like another day to kill...without any plans in the afternoon....waiting for the time to fly by because my dad wants me and my whole family to one of my cousin's son's birthday party. he was only 1 year old. i kept on thinking whether or not i should go because i know that i won't have so much fun.. i'll probably just sit at the corner of the living room with my 2 younger siblings because we don't really know this relative of ours that well... my sister eventually asked me whether i'll be going or not because i think that she might have the same thinking like mine earlier.... i simply answered "i'll go, but i'm only doing it for papa and nt for anyone else". i saw a smile on her face because indeed she had the similar thought that i had.



it was 8.30pm and we were there... a beautiful luxury condo in Bangsar, decorated with colourful ballons inside out. i was walking nervously infront of their door because i know that once i get in, i have to say hi to everyone...including those who i've never met in my entire life... i took a breath, and just walk in. 3 steps walking in just looking down on the floor trying hard not to make eye contact to anyone at all but then suddenly someone called my name with this unique high tone that is so familiar to me and my head just instantly rose up. she was there, seating at the coffee table with a fork on her left hand and a spoon on her right, looking towards me, smiling beautifully at me with those huge sparkled eyes, with hair tied back.



it was her, the person that taught me everything i know about singing and breathing technique and how to read musical notes and all. the person that never fails to force me to do better because she believed in me. she was indeed, my lecturer, Ms. Syafinaz.



when our eyes met, the first thing that came in my head was 'shit!' but i was so happy to see her, so i walked slowly towards her and greet her like a lost student who finally found her favourite lecturer. "how long has it been? how are you? what are you doing now?" are the questions that came out from the mouth... i answered her about everything. "yes, i read the newspaper the other day and saw some article about you, I'm so proud of you right now" is all she said to me....
getting to know that someone you can't pleased to be pleased with yourself is like your buying an ice cream cone with 1 scoop of ice cream but the ice cream gave another scoop for free... that's how i feel. after greeting her, i went and greet the other family members of mine and get on with our own thing.
1hour has past and someone was saying, "let Syafinaz play the piano! and her student can sing!"...i almost choked at my own water. of cause, being a good sport, Syafinaz sat infront of the piano and played two songs, 'smoke get in your eyes' and 'stranger in the night' beautifully...we were all amazed by her soprano voice. and then the moment came, she called me to sing, the first song i sang was 'angel'...i started soft because i was scared that she would judge me like she did with all the contastants in the reality show ONE IN A MILLION, but eventually, she didn't and she even flipped the music book to find another song for me to sing but this time i sang with my sisters, she palyed 'beautiful' and we sang but this time i didn't hesitate at all! yay! and last, she played 'a moment like this' and we sang together. i must say, she is so talented and i'm so proud that she was one of my vocal coach.

let's just say that we both had fun singing and laughing that day. she even agreed to see me perform next year in 'DanSing thru Broadway'. although i don't do much for that show, atleast she can witness the other young talents that's there to strike themselves at the spotlight on stage and i'm sure that this show will amaze her like this show did before. i am so happy that Ms. Farah Sulaiman called to join them in this awesome production.

so until next time. never let your hope dies before you'll never know who you'll meet and sometimes, miracles do happen!

cheers

Shahila Johan

<3

the cronicle!

so... how do u judge a person? is it just judge them by how they look? or even how they dress?or...maybe...who they hang out with? or even worst, by listening to others? it's hard to judge now isnt it? you might don't like that person when u hear lousy stuff about them but when u got to know them yourself, u might feel awful that u judged them wrongly before.... i have to admit i was once like that...i judge before i actually know them but now.... i've change...i really am... i've open my heart and don't judge people on my first meet! we all deserves a second chance don't u think? because a few days ago, i found out that someone who i've just met twice in my entire LIFE called me a liar to his 'ex' girlfriend just because i was on her side on this one... and to tell you the truth, i don't think i said anything about him or even mention about him at all to anyone or even his ex-girlfriend... so how come he would say that about me? well, i guess it's just a thing to get out from his treaky situation by blaming others...but i'm kindda glad that my name was brought out! i mean, well, atleast it shows that he noticed me!hahahaa~ it was thoughtful of him to remember me by two meetings.... im happy! :D or maybe she just mention me to make me hate him more.... i dunno... all i can say is that...i don't hate... i love everyone.... i don't wanna judge anyone.....

my friend once said, "if you're telling the truth, what are u afraid of?".... she's so right on this...i mean, you should be afraid if you lied to someone, because in the end, they'll find out eventually...so why trouble yourself lying? you did a mistake...so what?everyone does that...i do that too! if you think that you can get away from everything, you are so wrong.....eventually.. :)

how can you hate the person who is your friend for a long time just because he is side with the opposition from you? it's not anybody's fault for siding whoever's side right? although we might know who is right and who is wrong, you shouldn't just let go of something you had for a long time... friendship! what i've learned from friendship is that..... no matter how ugly the situation is, or how your friend doesn't help you in your own problems for some reason, it doesn't mean that you should just end your friendship just like that.... it just sound so 5 year olds... we all might have different opinions....we might hate each other's football team, but in the end.....we still live in this place called earth.... and one thing that brings us closer...friendship! tell me, how many times have u fought with your best mates? plenty right? and you guys still make it all up, although it might take some times, you still make up! so never say that he/she's your ex-friend or no longer friends anymore because as you guys get older, you might laugh at yourself or blame yourself for letting go something so precious.... just think about it! :)

if someone is nice, i don't think you should take advantage on him/her because one day, she might crack herself and will never be the nice person she was before...she might looked innocent, nerdy and virgin mary type but deep down...i think she's more than that......she can be fun to be with or make fun to but...everyone got their own feelings right? we all do.....so whats the fun of hurting other people's feeling? you tell me? it might be just for laugh at first, but when you get carried away, i don't think it's a laughing matter anymore.... one phrase i found 'One question haunts and hurts,too much to mention:Was I really seeking good or just seeking attention?Is that all good deeds are, when looked at with an ice-cold eye?If that's all good deeds are, maybe that's the reason why...I promise no good deed will I attempt to do again, ever again!No good deed will I do again!' i know it's kindda harsh but it's true isn't it? well...it's just my opinion anyways...... feel free to speak your mind!

cheers
Shahila Johan
<3

another birthday went by...

it's kindda weird because i thought it was yesterday that i celebrated my 21st birthday with my family and friends and with just a blink, another year went by and i'm 22 on the 3rd of December 2008.... time flies so fast that i'm worried i didn't do my best during my 21 years of birth and now adding one more year of wasted days of my life....but then again, i realise, i did do some remarkable things during my life on earth of these 21 years..... although it might not effect anyone in any ways, but it has thought me alot on being a better human being in the future. and i am...trying and still learning to be a good citizen that can actually make a different in this world...maybe one of these day i can...

well....like every other birthdays....there's always a cute birthday speech right?so yea...i think i wanna make a speeach la...not a long one....just a simple thank u speech...
first and foremost, bismillahirahmannirahim, my family.... my dad, Mr. Johan Ariffin b. Zainal Abiddin for believing in me and letting me persue my dreams and never gave up on me on my toughest time in my life...i love u dearly and yes, u are my true hero and idol....no one can replace my dad.... my mom, Pn. Zainah bt. Mohd Zain, for bringing me into this world and sharing everything u know about life with me and teaching me to be a better person and to be nice with everyone around me.... i love u mama.....i shall always be with u..... my step parents Dr. Noorliza Ibrahim and Captain Abbas, thank u for making both of my parents happy and being there for them when they are in need....and thank u for accepting me as ur own child and love me and my sisters as ur owns...i appreciate it really..... to my sisters, step-sisters and step-brother, Fathiha, Johanna, Lisa, Juliana, Zelda, Azman, Alyssa, Mariam and Haya.....thanks for being there as a family would and the bond that brings us closer.... to all my other family members (grandparents, uncles, aunties and cousins)....we're still a family no matter what....
my teachers, lecturers and mentors....thank u for teaching me how to do my best in everything i do and never gave up on me and my studies although i ever listen much in class... XP
to all my wonderful friends.....thank u for being there for me all the time....killing my boredom...helping me with my work and studies.... being a good ear and shoulder to cry on....the fun times we had spent together....it'll be in my heart forever......i'll cherish it forever.....i would mention the names of all my friends one by one but that mean's my speech gonna be like...forever.....so to all my friends (u know who u are)....i LOVE all of u..u guys are special in ur own ways....everyone is such a wonderful individuals.

ou wow!that's like...the shortest speech ever...heheheee~

well.....done with the thank u speech...now is for the wishing list... XP .... yea...i know its unnecessary but then again..this is the only time that i can make it right?hehehhee~
ok..my wish list....
1) that my family bond will never be broken...i love my family too much...
2) that our friendship all forever no matter no long that we've not met....
3) that human stop polluting and start make a different in this world...say no to plastic bag, do not litter, use less electricity, stop illegal lodging and all the other stuff that can harm the world that we live in.
4) stop child abuse....they didn't ask to be born, so why should they learn of war or pain?
5) stop domestic violent...did love started before domestic?why can we just keep the love that we had?
6) stop animal abuse...no matter what it is...animals are also living creatures that lives here on earth...
7) make love..not war...lets just make this world a better place for the next generation...one step at a time...be a hero....
8) for my friends to stop smoking....just for a day atleast...on my birthday maybe?
9) just being with family and friends is enough for me on my birthday...
10) fine...i wish for a new digital camera, baskin robin's ice cream cake, a big bag of M&Ms, a SUB jaket i saw in One Utama, pizzas, dresses and shoes...hehehee~ ou one more wish...i need a boyfriend....hahhahaa~kidding.... :P

anyways..... sorry for blabbering on stuff...:P i mean...i dunno what else to type anymore...just that erm....as we grow older...everything has to be change to suit with the upcoming lifestyle....if we can just make a different, a good different, i reckon we can make this world a better place for everyone.....

cheers
Shahila Johan
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