LOVE.....

remember how your friends always ask you what is love and why do you need love? some would say that love sucks....love is everything or even better...love is clueless.... scientifically...i've learned that there's a nerve in your brain that'll active when you're in love...i think that's why you feel so 'madly' in love....

love can also be put in so many different ways...no...i don't mean your 'one and only' true love.....but the love for your family, friends, property, pets and everything that you simply adore.... of course, i'm a human being too.... i always write about love your family and friends and all but right now, i would love to write about my love life for once.... :)

to tell you the truth, these few months has been quite hectic for me that i'm committed with a few production which includes the one that's coming out this week. but at the same time, i have time to spend my time with my friends and from there i got to meet a few more new people that's gonna be part of my life as a friend forever. i don't know if there's such thing as love at first sight but somehow i think i'm feeling it abit and the 1st time i met him, i was indeed very shy (for once).... but we eventually got to know each other quite fast....i'm pleased about that.... :D well who doesn't right?if you like someone, you should atleast put abit of effort in so that the person notice you. so of course that's what i did and true enough he noticed me....noticed me well enough to hold my hand when we walk...i was over my head when he did that but of course i didn't show it.

but then, once we finally got to know each other abit more, i found out that he got a girlfriend that he can't break-up with just because she's a suicidal maniac that can't seem to let him go and would do anything to get him, and he's the type that would blame himself i anything happen to someone who hurt themsleves for him..... do you get i'm saying? so basicaly, i don't wanna be the one to be blame as 'the-one' that makes him break-up with his girlfriend, because i believe in Karma, what goes around comes around.... so if i'm the cause for them to break-up, i'm scared that he would do the same thing to me if he found someone who's so much better than me.

so basically, eventhough i have this strong feelings for him, i know i can't have him just because he can't and won't break-up and that i believe in karma. i know i'm not suppose to play with this thing called LOVE but i can't just ignore and play with this game of 'secret love' forever. i want my LOVE to be perfect, the LOVE that would add to my happiness and not complication and headache like i'm feeling now. just by thinking that, i've absorb negative energy in me.

to tell you the truth, i can't help myself thinking about him although i know it's wrong. i haven't have this feeling for quite some times and for once i thought that he would have been the one, but i guess i was wrong... and then again, life goes on.... the world never stop moving and so should i.....

whatever i'm writting is how i feel.......

If the sun went down tomorrow and it never came back
And the city went quiet and we fade to black
Well I won't have a single regret
And I wouldn't trade a thing
Cause I never knew I could feel what I feel inside of me

I knew all the time I was taking a chance
When I stand there on the edge of the cliff and no one was holding my hand
Well the wind blew strong and the clouds rolled in and I, I felt us lift off the ground
Yes I bared my soul and I dared to go knowing one day you might let me down

I gave you everything but to have said goodbye

Better to have loved than never loved at all
Better to have dreamed than never taken the fall
Better to have loved you and let you in than never to have touched your skin
Better to have hurt and screamed and cried
Fall into the earth for a trip to the sky
Better to have loved, better to have loved
You

cheers

Shahila Johan
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DanSing thru broadway live in DBKL auditorium..

Dansing Thru Broadway 2 (2009)

Venue: Auditorium Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur

Date: 19 & 21 February 2009

Time: 8.30pmPrice: RM200, RM150, RM80, RM50

20% discount for purchase of 4 or more tickets

10% discount for senior citizends (55+)

10% discount for MPO subscribers

Discounts cannot be combined

Tickets are available at:Box Office, Dewan Filharmonik PETRONAS,Ground Floor, Tower 2, PETRONAS Twin Towers,KLCC, 50088 Kuala Lumpur

Tel: 03-2051 7007

PETRONITA, the association for the wives of PETRONAS staff and female employees, is organising a charity performances entitled, "DanSing Through Broadway" on 19 and 21 February 2009 at Auditorium Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur. The charity event is organized primarily to raise fund for the Children dialysis Fund established by the National Kidney Foundation (NKF) of Malaysia, as well as for the Children's Cleft Lip and Cleft Palate Corrective Surgery (CCL/CPC) Community Project and for the Musculo-Skeletal Cancer Treatment (MSCT) Regional Centre run by the Prince Court Medical Centre (PCMC).The performance will be led by professionals in the performing arts industry, and the cast includes budding actors comprising primary and secondary schools students.

Featuring exceprts from famous and familiar Broadway and movie musicals such as "Mary Poppins", "Hello Dolly" and "Oliver", "DanSing Thru Broadway" promises to entertain whilst promoting education and learning through appreciation for the arts.

Choreographer: Farah Sulaiman

Director: Sabrina Hassan

Vocal Coach: Peter Ong

Cast Members of DTB 2 (2009)
Sabrina Hassan, Brian McIntyre, Radhi Khalid, Tria, Peter Ong, Ho Soon Yoon, Aris Kadir, Nicole Ann-Thomas, Zeqhty Nattrah, Tabitha Kong, Natasha Yusof, Keith Yew, Johan Yusof, Shahila Johan, NorFariza Bashah, Alfred Choo, Kelvin Choo, Carmen, Shue Ling, Razlan Yusof, Alesia Dhana , Siti Amirah , Kreshenka Jaisi, Alia, Aizat, Maimun, Mae, Qistina , Deana, Amelia, Alfin Lian, Sean, Suryyn, Adam, Aila , Aehtan, Arif Faizal, Cheryl, Krystle and more...

sypnosis:-

A geeky and somewhat timid Karim meets Grey for an interview. Grey, a theatre producer who is looking for a personal assistant, is appalled with Karim’s lacklustre demeanour: no wonder the boy has not found work, just look at him! He tells Karim the story of “Hello Dolly” where Cornelius and Barnaby present themselves as millionaires to attract their dream girls; thus, our journey through Broadway begins. Featuring hit songs from musicals “Hello Dolly”, Miss Saigon, Annie, A Chorus Line and many, many more; “DanSing Thru Broadway” promises to be entertainment and fun for the whole family.

hope to see u there and thank u so much for supporting Malaysian Theater!!!!!

cheers

Shahila Johan http://www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com/

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Resolution........

resolution......resolution.....do i have to?hmmmm......ok...here goes......

i know it's kindda late to do this already but of of my dear friend kept asking me to write something up anyway so thanks to him i Shall write what i think i should write.. :D

so yeah.......new year resolution......i've been thinking about it for some times on what i should do this year and that i'll know i can hang on to the resolution until the end of the year.

the truth is that....i had splendid year last year and i really do wish i could have that year's excitement and transfer it to this year so i don't have to think about what's going to happen next and all but then again....every year is a new experience..so i'll just have to move along with it...follow the groove as people say it....

as many would be aware of this, starting from january this year, i don't expect much things to do...like always, i would go to class, study, and then return home and be a lazy bumb lying around the house doing nothing. but then again, i got rehearsals every weekends for a charity show which is coming up really soon this febuary. a miracle thing happened and now i got an acting offer from a production house for a new drama that's coming on in astro prima around middle/late march this year. and just a moment ago, i just got another offer for a musical production in KLPac in april later this year. so eventually...with all of that, i'm quite busy with shootings and rehearsals...but the weirdest thing is that....i love it!! they don't pay me much at all but i love doing it...i think it's because it's a passion for me and i love being explored in such different industry.
ou....did i tell u that i'm also a student studying in unitar and at the same time, i'm a chef at embun cafe also in unitar, kelana jaya? well.........heheheee~ i am.... :P

so..back to my resolution....ok... 1st things 1st....i know it'll be imposible but i'm gonna think positive to have that vibe in my head and focus.....i've always wanted to be in all types of stage production from gigs to stage musicals to tv dramas, ads, concerts and all in 1 year in a row...so...my this year's target is to atleast perform 1 of each of the shows this year...i dunno how long it's gonna take but i'm gonna make it this year..heheheee~ well...on or off stage is fine with me but as long as i'm involves in it.... so right now i got 3 in my hand..... i'm accomplishing it one step at a time. so yeah, if anyone needs a wedding singer.....just email me k? :P

my next resolution is...to save the enviroment by using less plastic bags, using less electricity, and recycle what i can. i'm starting to do all of these already but right now..i wanna urge everyone else to do the same thing..so come on people, we need to save our planet, the global warming is getting orst and i'm worry about what's gonna happen in the future, is there a future for the next generation after us??? come on...do your part....as a human being...let's help...together....

ok...now...for my silly resolution.......stop biting my nails, reduce eating chocolates (shit), change my style, find a rich boyfriend......hahhhhaaaaaa~
(all of the above.....so NOT gonna happen)

i remembered a few months ago when me and a few of my friends did this tarot card reading just to see what does the future holds for me and eventually it says that somehow i'm gonna find my true happiness in the next 3 months....i did my tarot cards reading on the 24th of december last year (i remembered it because it was also my friend's birthday!yay!)...so in between that date until 24th march 2009, something truly splendid is going to be my true happiness...and that true happiness, i'm gonna carry it with me for the rest of my life!!!! hmmm....i've been having all this luck with jobs offer and all right now. does that means that my true happiness is to entertaint people?hmmm...i've always thought that my true happiness is that i'm gonna find a true love or something....hahhahaaa~ silly me....anyways.....whatever it is...i'm still smiling now so i guess IT is....IT is my true happiness and i hope that IT will go forever with me....no matter how bad things can get...so anyways......that's my roughly written down resolution..hehheeee~

cheers
Shahila Johan www.shahila-johan.blogspot.com
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