how could i ask for more....

In life, everyone makes silly mistakes. But in every mistake, there's the good and the bad. I've never knew why, but it seems that in human nature, people always think about the MINOR negative outcomes and never appreciate what's good come to them…..they always thought that life sucks because nothing ever comes their way, but they never really thought about what remarkable things they have done for the past years of their life.

Just because you breakup with somebody, doesn't mean you have to mope around all day,week or even years and let the world sympathize you. and then you think that you're doomed never to have a relationship for all your life….WTF!!!so what if your not in a relationship right now??this is the time when you should STOP moping alone and start working with your life…hang out with your friends…go watch a movie…go read a book…or better yet…go find somebody and stop condemning ur partner for God's sakes..

YES it is true that you need a partner in life…but when you think about it (if ur under 25)don't you think that your still young??aren't young people suppose to feel nothing but free, young and happy??and not stress, confused and crappy???

For me..i have been through all that despite dat I m only 22(well almost..atleast its December..)….i have been through sorrows and even blists…I've been through the happiest days of my life to the worst day of my life…I've tried not to be myself just to pleased others …I've been crushed like a rock by the person whom I thought was 'THE ONE'…I've always thought that everyne (including my family, sorry...) hated me and is trying to put me down…lots of people I trusted had backstab me a lot….been teased at because of my physical size……being lonely all the time….the list could go on forever!!!!but I should stop…hehe…

Well..anyways…when I think about it again…I forgot all the wonderful things I've done too…I've scored in my exams…I was lucky to win some sports medals… someone likes me..someone loved me…I've been in love before that I couldn't breath….I've conquered mount santubung….i have a wonderful family who has been supporting me through out my days and still is…my true friends who's always there when I need them…music that eases my my pain….performed infront of atleast 10,000 audiences before and proud of it…..got to perform infront of our King and PM…got some insparations to write my own songs…..lucky to still have money in the bank…hehe…..lucky the have touched some people hearts (in a way..)….lucky 2 have YOU to read my blog…hehe….just to think about it again….i have a lot more to be thankful about…don't you think so too?????

All I wanted say is that, instead of thinking 'what a lousy day I had'…why don't you think about 'today, I met a cute guy'…or 'thank gosh I passed my exams'….or even 'YES!!!i've lost 2 kgs'….when you think about it…the SECRET not to think ur life sucks is simply wake up with a smile and think about one wonderful thing that you'er gonna do today..it doesn't have to be big… u can start with…'today…I should change my hair style..' or 'today…maybe I should say hello to the cute guy..(wink* wink*)'…or 'today, I'm not gonna stop think about my weight for awhile and eat as much as I want'….

I have wrote so many poetry and songs lyrics and it has helped me relax all the time…ITS TRUE!! and I've tried writing it in BM but I can't seem to do it well…or I'll write something really odd…so I guess I should just stick to english for now..but that doesn't mean that I will not write in BM in the future…I've promised myself somehow I will try..hehe…just..not so soon la….In da mean time….i leave you with somethng I would like to share… read on if u may…hehehe….

There nothing like the warm of a summer afternoon
Waking through the sunlight and being cradled by the moon.
Catching fireflies at night, building castles in the sand
Kissing mama's face goodnight and holding daddy's hand…
Thank you......how could I ask for more…

Running barefoot through the grass, a little hide and go seek
Being so in love you can hardly eat.
Dancing in the dark, when there's no one else around
Being bundled 'neath the covers and watching rain falls to the ground…
Thank you....how could I ask for more…

So many things I thought would bring me happiness
Some dreams that are realities today.
Such an irony the things that means the most to me
Are the memories that I've made along the way…

So if there's anything I've learned from this journey I am on
Simple truth will keep you going, simple love will keep you strong.
There are questions without answers and flames that never dies
Heartaches we go through are often blessings in disguise…
So thank you…how could I ask for more…

cheers
Shahila Johan
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