the long and winding road....

Life can be hard sometimes huh?but at the same time, its fun...to know that what we've been through eventually makes us think wiser. We can be trapped in a world of lies and games and rules that somehow, we think that we live in a virtual life or we can snap out of our dreams and deal with the reality that the world is offering. I like dreaming but at the same time, i like my dreams to become a reality. The more i think about it, i wonder if any of my dreams came to life yet or not..hmmmmm.....
I've always make myself busy with things so i could run away from the reality world but somehow i can't escape. sometimes i move to fast that i've forgotten my purpose in life. chasing my dreams to become reality, that's the main thing that i needed to do.
i think i did pretty good on slowly to fulfill my dreams. i've always love to perform infront of a crowd and i did!!!! and i think i might be addicted to it. Just to sing, dance or even act on stage with the lights shine on you is like.... you're in your own sweet world and at the same time making people relate to you. Going on tour and making people noticed you once in awhile is really fun! like, i have this one time, right after a performance, a little girl came to me and say "che che (kakak/sister) i like you". I couldn't ask for more. I love it... it's good to make a good impression to kids because they are the ones who gonna be us one day and we have to show them whats best for them.
Did i ever tell you that i cook? well, now you know. i can't say that i love cooking, but i think i can be good at it and when i cook, i love to see what they think of the food that i've made. i mean, i bake alot, so it's not like it's successful all the time but when it is, it's an awesome feeling!!!
on being alone, sometimes its better to be alone but not all the time... i mean, everyone need a partner in their life right, at a moment of their life, they wanna know the feeling of love and being love. i want that too! but i only want that when i can actually trust that person. i don't wanna rush things, i want it to be relax and cool, i want to feel the love that could add happiness to my life (and his of course) and not sadness or sorrows like most of the couples that we see now a days. i wanna love and be loved all over by the same person everyday of my life. to share everything and spend time just the two of us under the big blue sky on top of a hill somewhere or sit by the ocean while feeling the ocean's breeze. yea...maybe one of these days, when faith found someone.
friendship that last, not forever but last long enough to know who's your real friends and who are not. i have to say, i have lots of fantastic and awesome friends that have helped me through my ups and downs. we may have lost contact but somehow we manage to find a way to connect back with each other, and when they do, you just feel like you don't ever wanna let them go again. but eventually, you will, AGAIN!
anyways, what i'm trying to say is that, live your life to the max, if you wanna do something or try something new, i say "GO TRY IT!!!" you won't loose anything. just like the song from 'avenue Q', "everything in life, is only for now".......

cheers
shahila Johan
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